It's been such a busy couple of weeks for us! Joe's dad came to visit, I had a bunch of appointments, papers due, baby shower to think about, thankfully things have slowed down some this week-with the exception of school! Gosh it is wearing me out. I was urged to not take these two classes together because they are the more difficult ones in the program. I figured best to take them before I deliver Bristol and my placenta takes my remaining brain cells with it. Hmmm, maybe not the best idea. Whatever, I've been through worse.
Since the oil spill last summer tourism has been down at the beach. In an effort to revitalize the area there are tons of commercials on TV about coming to the beach, one shows a family with a little girl (about Kennedy's age) in a pink bikini (similiar to the one she had on) running to the water. OMG! seriously what would have normally made me want to go there and spend a few days basking in the sun, has me running in the opposite direction. I want nothing more than to spend a few days listening to the waves and burying my feet in the warm sand but I cannot do it. Not now, maybe not ever. Knowing what I know now about how quickly things can happen and how dangerous the beach can be has me scared to death to ever enjoy it again. I want Bristol to experience the beach but fear that I may never let her near it. Anyone who knows us, knows that we love the beach and jumped at every opportunity to go there, now it's all different.
On another note, I celebrated with my friends on Sunday at my baby shower. It was nice. We got so many beautiful gifts. I swear I have no idea where we would be without our friends. That morning I didn't feel much like socializing but that mood passed quickly and I enjoyed the day. Yesterday, my dedicated PJ day, was spent putting things together and finding a home for all of the awesome things. It was bittersweet.
It's been awhile since I read the bible, I was reading it daily but really have been preoccupied lately that I just didn't get around to it. (not a very good excuse) Anyway, I am trying to read it more consistently now. I also prayed, prayed hard for several things last week and those prayers got answered. One for my own selfish reasons and another for a friend who is going through an adoption process. Coincidence? Maybe to some but I am chalking these up to answered prayers.
Absolutely answered prayers! There is nothing sweeter than a relationship with Jesus to carry us in our sorrows and in our joyful times. You don't know me, but I have been praying for you and your husband. We have two mutual friends and I am glad to be able to lift up your family to Jesus. I am also glad to hear you are spending time in His Word. It is our strength in times of great distress and in times of great blessing. You are in a time of great blessing, I just hate that it is surrounded in such a time of grief. I am so sorry. It gives me peace knowing where you are drawing your strength. The bible says "He will keep you in perfect peace when your mind is stayed on Him." Keep looking to Him. Make the Lord your priority each morning before your day takes over and let Him strengthen you through His words so you have that to pull from as you face each day without Kennedy. I have never been through what you are going through. I don't pretend to know how to get through it, but I do believe what God says in His Word is true, so because I trust that, it's all I can offer. Many congratulations on your upcoming birth and my sincerest apologies for the loss of your angel. She is SO beautiful!!
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